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Assignment 3: Self Portraiture

The brief

Drawing upon examples in Part Three and your own research, you can approach your self-portraits however you see fit. You may choose to explore your identity or masquerade as someone else, or use empty locations or objects to speak of your experiences. However you choose to approach it, use yourself – directly or indirectly – as subject matter.

Keep a diary for a set time (at least two weeks). Each day write two or three pages about yourself – what you’ve been doing/thinking. This can be as specific or poetic as you wish. You may wish to pick a theme for the duration. This is an open brief designed to give you freedom to create something personal which suits you best. Use the artists you’ve looked at in Part Three for inspiration. Select the most interesting parts of the diary (which could be the most banal or mundane) and interpret them into a photographic project. A good way to approach selection could be to ask a friend/fellow student/stranger to read it and send back a highlighted version. You could then base your project on those parts. This would take the pressure off you to find a ‘good story’.

You may choose to select a few days or phrases that stark an idea for you, or you may wish to exaggerate how you were feeling one day into a parody of yourself or the circumstance. You may wish to create a ‘document’ of that time in a re-creation of events – or direct a model to act out some of the content of the diary, making your own ‘film-stills’.

You could present your chosen diary entries as a visual diary or use it as a springboard for further exploration. You may choose to insert the pictures like snapshots into your diary and hand it all in together. You don’t have to restrict yourself in the diary itself; you may decide to use it to take you into new territory.

Introduction

This assignment began with my diary [1] and an initial idea that took its inspiration from Larson and Hindelmann. The idea was to use my diary text to choose a location using the What Three Words navigation software. The tool uses a combination of three words as coordinates and is used as a simpler way of navigating than GPS. I would then visit the locations in a similar way to the artists in their Geolocations project and photograph myself as a positional marker in the scene. I would also follow a similar approach in choosing a composition that related to the diary text. This idea picked up on advice from the feedback in my previous assignment about having a structure to my planning and looked promising until I ran into difficulties with the technology that prevented my using What Three Words in this way. After reflecting on what I wanted to achieve with the work, I realised that I could explore the differences between my expression through the words in diary and the cold, impassive way that technology processes this kind of information. I would contrast the two interpretations and invite the viewer to draw their own conclusions by creating a linear series of photographs containing contextual references to the themes in the text. The evolution of these thoughts are captured in the blog post ‘Preparing for Assignment 3′[2].

Summary of the Idea

My idea was to take the text from each day of the diary and run them through a software tool to count the most frequently used words produce a word cloud of the most used words. The words are subsequently sized by their frequency, with the higher counts being the larger font size. This crude analysis of the diary produced an impassive assessment of my writing, which often contrasted with the original intent. I wanted to highlight these differences by projecting the words onto my expressionless face. I would further add to the contrast by lighting the background of the portraits with colours that represent or invoke emotional responses both in me and in the viewer. It would be up to the viewer as to how they interpreted the image in terms of narrative. Arranging a week’s worth of portraits would present the linear passing of time through the series. During the preparation work, I had decided to stop developing the idea so that I could shoot it. However, during further reflection I realised that the viewer would actually have to read the whole diary in order to appreciate the series. I felt that this would significantly lessen the impact of the images, so decided to include short paragraphs of the respective days alongside them. Each image would now be captioned, which I felt would make the series stronger.

Technical Approach

I set up a small studio with a plain grey background and a studio strobe fitted with different coloured gels. The camera, key light (the projector) and fill light (continuous LED) were positioned on stands and the camera on a tripod. I enlisted my wife to set the final position of the words onto my skin and operate the camera. Each portrait was then further post-processed and had the text added to it.

The Series: Mark My Words

Monday
“Where there are questions or challenges from the team about what they are being told, I endeavour to resolve them if I can.  It’s not always possible though,as the engineering leadership team isn’t currently involved in some of the higher-level discussions or decisions.  At the point that we are, some of the information that is being briefed will be easier to explain.  For now, though there is a sense of ‘no news is good news’ – a bizarre expression that suggests that ignorance of something happening is better than knowing”
Tuesday
“The meeting itself for me is only about 50% effective in discussing the important topics, so I find myself questioning the point of it.  As Tuesday progresses, the topics become more interesting as more people are involved in their debate.  Perhaps my reticence about the first meeting is more about it feeling like a morning prayers session than a constructive meeting”
Wednesday
“As we were all working from home, there was little to no risk of it causing an issue in the business, but it was still a theme that people would tell us about their symptoms on the morning call.  On this particular morning, I realised how that doesnt happen at all now.  Isolation was indeed a good way of reducing the risk to our health, it would seem.  Today, everyone was in good form”
Thursday  
“The need to de-personalise the workspaces is something that we aren’t undertaking lightly, but it won’t be seen that way by the people who work for us.  I have a team member with four computer screens who is going to go mad when I tell her she can have only one.  If I think about my own sense of home, I’m reminded of the time when home was the last place I wanted to be.  I was being driven slowly mad by noise from our upstairs neighbour, which became the trigger for a series of serious depressive episodes that eventually landed me in hospital.  I had no axe to grind with our neighbours and they could never have fully understood the damage they were doing to me”
Friday
“On this occasion one of her neighbours who has been looking out for her during lockdown, called to say she couldn’t get hold of her.  While the neighbours have been great, this one is a bit of a busybody.  She had become accustomed to watching Hazel’s routine of putting her recycling bins back in the garage after they had been emptied in the morning.  On this day, the bins were still out in the afternoon.  The neighbour had tried the house but got no answer, called her mobile and got her voicemail and, after some time called Jayne”
Saturday  
“I’ve always felt proud of my own distance swimming achievements, though.  My first distance swim was 2 miles open water, which is a massive challenge in its own right.  Even though COVID has put paid to my training this year, I am determined to swim the 11 mile length of Lake Windermere before I am 50 in just under 2 and a half years’ time”
Sunday
“One the way home, we started planning our next holiday.  We have had two cancelled this year so far, with a number of triathlon events that would include long weekends also being called off.  With the rest of the year provisionally planned, we turned our attention to 2021 and 2022.  Towards the end of this year, we have hired a camper van as a trial with a view to buying early next year.  It’s something we are both very excited about because it give us a little more freedom to take off for short breaks whenever we like” 

Reflection

This assignment was a labour of love. The process of developing an idea and trying to learn from my previous work was an interesting experience. One of the driving forces in this evolution was the need to not overthink what I was trying to do. Past experience has led to me shooting what comes naturally or is the most comfortable. I believe this to be the main reason for choosing to be in the photographs in the way normally associated with self-portaiture as opposed to one of the alternative interpretations. Although I was hugely inspired by Morrissey, I set out to create something different. The idea of projection as both communication and visualisation came to me when I was thinking about becoming a canvass. I was immediately drawn to the way that light bends around a curved surface, so with my face and body as the canvass this would be emphasised in the images. I’m happy with the way that the pictures are not of me, but are a carriage for my words. In essence, the diary and the computer’s highlighting of my impactful words is what is about me. The mood colours were essentially chosen by my wife, based on both my words and how she knows I feel about certain events or memories. This series has therefore become a very personal narrative about me with internal and external context leading through it. I still don’t like being in photographs, but here I believe I’ve succeeded in being both present and absent at the same time. I deliberately tested this assertion in the series itself as two of the photographs have slightly different poses to the others. When I was editing the series, the shot for Saturday was the one that naturally stood out when looking at them all on the same screen. However, the more subtle ‘eyes closed’ shot for Thursday went almost unnoticed. I found myself reading the words and taking in the bright colour of each frame, which was my original intent.

In preparing the text for the captions, I naturally re-read the diary carefully. It was interesting to see what my wife saw when she read it. The two weeks that I worked on it were a rollercoaster of emotions, actions and reactions that I could see more clearly in the context of the photographs I had been shooting. Monday to Thursday told a story of a man who was in control of his daily working life. Themes of acceptance, opportunity, boredom and frustration were evident, not surprising given the COVID-19 situation. The rest of the week centred around my creative time, my passion for photography and study, as well as planning ahead for more adventurous days. When I think about it, that is exactly what life is like for me at present.

Against the Assessment Criteria

Demonstration of Technical and Visual Skills

This assignment used multiple lighting sources in a challenging mini-studio setup. The light level of the project could not be adjusted, so using it as the key light presented exposure challenges. The main issue was that the background light could not be reduced in power any further, so selecting an exposure that flattered my skin was extremely difficult. However, I wanted to create the sense of emotion ‘aura’ by using real lighting instead of adding a background in post-processing (as Moffatt did in Scorpio) so I was happy with the result. Visually, I think the images all have very similar composition with the exception of the ‘Saturday’, which was shot near the end of the day. I liked the way that the slightly cynical expression echoed my experience of the diary and the duration of the shoot, so I left it in the series to add something different. When I look at the sequence together, I’m reminded of the pop art style adopted by Warhol and his peers, which was an unexpected visual but one I actually like.

Quality of Outcome

I set out to show my words as seen by me and by a machine set against the context of what I was experiencing emotionally in the diary. I believe that the series achieves this through as series of subtle layers to each image. Visual tension is maintained by the words on their contoured canvass. The connections to the diary are strong through use of a single paragraph and the contrast between the human and machine interpretation stands out. All of these elements distract from my being in the picture and to an extent I achieve anonymity in each composition.

Demonstration of Creativity

This assignment was the first time that I’ve rejected the notion of creating a work that a viewer may like. Instead of wondering “will my tutor like this?” or “will anyone understand what I mean?”, I simply created what I wanted. I drew heavily on influences from Part 3, but the end result is not in any way a facsimile. Each picture is different from the previous, so there is no sense of repetition or lack of originality between them. I also pushed myself further out of my comfort zone in the use of my face and body as the canvass. My initial thinking once I had the concept of projection onto my skin was to use my body more than my face. I liked the idea of curvature distorting the words, but ultimately rejected the idea because it could be the body of anyone rather than obviously mine. This was a creative decision based on how to give the photographs impact, something that I have learned throughout Context and Narrative.

Context

In the context of my learning on the course so far, this assignment takes influences from the photographers studied and results in something that I believe meets the brief. The scope of the assignment brief was very open, stating that we had freedom to experiment with our interpretation of it. My interpretation is very different from any other coursework completed so far; to that extent I am very happy with the outcome.

Special thanks to my very patient wife Jayne, who helped set up and was ultimately responsible for the shooting.

Post-Feedback Changes to Assignment 3

During the feedback session with my tutor, a number of ideas were proposed to enhance both my submission and my appreciation of similar work within the genre of self portraiture. In addressing the feedback, I conducted the recommended further research, described in the blog post Reflecting on Assignment 3 Feedback[3]. However, one of the suggestions related to my assignment photographs was to change the crop from square format to portrait. This would not only tie in with the idea of them being portraits but it would also emphasise the main subject by reducing the amount of background colour in the frames. I could immediately see the benefit of re-cropping so decided that my final submission should incorporate this change.

Revised Series

Monday
“Where there are questions or challenges from the team about what they are being told, I endeavour to resolve them if I can.  It’s not always possible though,as the engineering leadership team isn’t currently involved in some of the higher-level discussions or decisions.  At the point that we are, some of the information that is being briefed will be easier to explain.  For now, though there is a sense of ‘no news is good news’ – a bizarre expression that suggests that ignorance of something happening is better than knowing”
Tuesday
“The meeting itself for me is only about 50% effective in discussing the important topics, so I find myself questioning the point of it.  As Tuesday progresses, the topics become more interesting as more people are involved in their debate.  Perhaps my reticence about the first meeting is more about it feeling like a morning prayers session than a constructive meeting”
Wednesday
“As we were all working from home, there was little to no risk of it causing an issue in the business, but it was still a theme that people would tell us about their symptoms on the morning call.  On this particular morning, I realised how that doesnt happen at all now.  Isolation was indeed a good way of reducing the risk to our health, it would seem.  Today, everyone was in good form”
Thursday  
“The need to de-personalise the workspaces is something that we aren’t undertaking lightly, but it won’t be seen that way by the people who work for us.  I have a team member with four computer screens who is going to go mad when I tell her she can have only one.  If I think about my own sense of home, I’m reminded of the time when home was the last place I wanted to be.  I was being driven slowly mad by noise from our upstairs neighbour, which became the trigger for a series of serious depressive episodes that eventually landed me in hospital.  I had no axe to grind with our neighbours and they could never have fully understood the damage they were doing to me”
Friday
“On this occasion one of her neighbours who has been looking out for her during lockdown, called to say she couldn’t get hold of her.  While the neighbours have been great, this one is a bit of a busybody.  She had become accustomed to watching Hazel’s routine of putting her recycling bins back in the garage after they had been emptied in the morning.  On this day, the bins were still out in the afternoon.  The neighbour had tried the house but got no answer, called her mobile and got her voicemail and, after some time called Jayne”
Saturday  
“I’ve always felt proud of my own distance swimming achievements, though.  My first distance swim was 2 miles open water, which is a massive challenge in its own right.  Even though COVID has put paid to my training this year, I am determined to swim the 11 mile length of Lake Windermere before I am 50 in just under 2 and a half years’ time”
Sunday
“One the way home, we started planning our next holiday.  We have had two cancelled this year so far, with a number of triathlon events that would include long weekends also being called off.  With the rest of the year provisionally planned, we turned our attention to 2021 and 2022.  Towards the end of this year, we have hired a camper van as a trial with a view to buying early next year.  It’s something we are both very excited about because it give us a little more freedom to take off for short breaks whenever we like” 

Updated Conclusion

I believe that the re-crop makes the pictures more impactful. On reflection, the area of background colour was distracting from the main subject and although I liked the Warhol-esque feel that it created, I don’t think it has been diminished by making the area smaller. The revised crop also makes it easier to read some of the smaller words being projected. Overall, I’m happy with the revised set.

References

[1] Fletcher R, 2020, “Assignment 3 Diary”, OCA Blog Post, https://richardfletcherphotography.photo.blog/2020/08/23/assignment-3-diary/

[2] Fletcher R, 2020, “Preparing for Assignment 3”, OCA Blog Post, https://richardfletcherphotography.photo.blog/2020/09/19/preparing-for-assignment-3/

[3] Fletcher R, 2020, “Reflecting on Assignment 3 Feedback”, OCA Blog Post, https://richardfletcherphotography.photo.blog/2020/10/09/reflecting-on-assignment-3-feedback/

Preparing for Assignment 3

Introduction

I have just received the feedback on Assignment 2 in a video call with my tutor.  That was the first assignment in Context and Narrative that would count towards assessment at the end of the unit.  I was hoping that I had met the brief, and indeed that was part of the summary, however the feedback that struck a chord was that I had made things harder than they need be by not having a methodology in the way I had approached the shoot.  What that meant was that I had connected the text to the pictures, but I hadn’t had a strong common anchor between the images that would make searching for subjects more consistent.    This is not to be confused with the theory of anchor and relay that Barthes postulated, but literally something that connects the photographs in some way.  When I reflect on the work, I had been very stressed throughout shooting the photographs.  I had formed an idea that I wanted to explore, mapped out in my logical brain which elements would represent trauma in the frame and set about taking the pictures.  That was when the assignment became difficult and as I gradually found it harder and harder to find inspiring subjects, the more I tried to force creativity to come.  I hadn’t set out with a common approach to the subjects in mind and had I done so, the creative part would have been more free-flowing. An example of an strong anchoring element would be Fox’s series “My Mother’s Cupboards and my Father’s words” [1]  In this case, all of the pictures are not just of the same kind of subject, they are all of a particular subject that the artist was both familiar with and had ready access to.  Her mother’s cupboards and their inherent tidiness was the anchor, the narrative forming around the contrast of order and the brutality of the words from her father.  During the feedback call, my tutor suggested that if I’d travelled to the place where the traumas had taken place, that would have tied the images together more strongly.   I had to agree with that sentiment.

Assignment 3

Usually I would not be thinking too much about the next assignment when working through the research and coursework that leads to it.  However, the course notes steer us towards Assignment 3 with the writing of a daily diary [2].  I’ve been writing mine for about a week a the time of this post and it’s already been an interesting experience in terms of what happens to me during the course of a working day and the thoughts and feelings that are invoked.  What we need to do for Assignment 3 is to include ourselves in the narrative in some way.  The diary is supposed to stimulate ideas or be a part of the series in some way which builds on the storytelling we’ve been doing thus far.

I was reflecting on the feedback and discussing with my wife on our daily walk this afternoon.  She could understand the points about anchoring the images together by having a structured approach to the shoot and we started talking about ideas for how to include me in the narrative without it being too prescriptive.  This is still always a concern for me, which I believe stops me from completely letting go of my imagination. What my tutor meant by structure was more about having something that made the creation of the work consistent.  She highlighted the series Geolocations by Nate Larson and Marni Shindelman, which I refer to in my assignment diary [3].  This was a series that took tweets from Twitter and used the publicly available geolocation data to find where precise location they were posted from.   The photographers then visited the locations with a large format film camera and shot a photograph that was then paired with the words from the tweets.  The creativity of the idea of shooting something that tells as story of the words and what may have been happening for the author, by using a visual from where it was written is obviously very powerful.  Modern technology has allowed our precise position on Earth to be mapped to within a few metres and the idea of the trace of a story from the space we once occupied is fascinating.  An example of the work can be seen below:

From the series Geolocations by Larson and Hindelman, 2007 [3]

Here we have a beautifully composed and lit photograph from the location where the emotional tweet was written. The tweeter is asking if they have made the right decision, which could mean anything but suggests a major decision made with relation to another person. Could it be that the tweeter has left a partner to be with the undisclosed person? Could it be an innocuous as someone making a purchase from that person? The accompanying image shows a lone car parked outside a motel, which could almost be from a David Lynch film. This visual tends to support the life-changing decision narrative and when coupled with the words, has great impact. When considering the concept of the series, I naturally identified with how clever it is to use the modern technology in conjunction with the uniquely personal written word. It’s also a strong narrative that tells both the story of the unfortunate tweets as well as revealing just how private our lives really are. The debate about sharing our innermost feelings on social media is one that has been raging since its inception, but here we have an almost voyeuristic element where anyone can find where we have been and place themselves in what they believe to be our story. What interested me was the structure or plan that was being followed. The photographers clearly selected the tweets that had the biggest impact on them and then methodically visited the scene. What they shot was going to be the creative element, but the ‘mechanical’ act of visiting the scenes removed the ambiguity of “How am I going to represent the words?” This was something I really struggled with in Assignment 2. I had the random thoughts as spoken by friends and the idea of representing the traumas through industrial and empty spaces, but spent a huge amount of time trying to find compositions that fit. This forced location-hunting and subsequent ‘creativity’ was exhausting. What I needed to do in Assignment 3 was to have a plan – form an idea and then focus on a workflow for the shoot. This would leave me with more capacity for creating the imagery that supported my idea.

The Diary

The idea of keeping the diary [2] was something that appealed to me from the start of Part 3. A simple document of my working days and free time was unlikely as most of the things that happen to me in my life prompt memories and reflections on things that have happened. I would describe myself as a reflective person in general and while I don’t live in the past, I am hugely appreciative of the things I have learned from my experiences. My plan was just to write what came to me that day and with this in mind, achieving the large number of pages set out in the course notes was never a concern. My plan from the start was to share the diary with my wife as she has known me better than almost anyone in my life so far. I would ask her to read the diary and just take on board her reaction to it. My thoughts were around a series that would describe how I felt during the two weeks rather than reporting what I had for breakfast.

Initial Idea

My first thought was around something similar to what Larson and Hindelman, using location technology to link to themes in my diary. I considered the fairly new application called What Three Words, which uses seemingly random words as a simple map reference for any 3x3m space in the world. A map from this software can be seen below:

‘Type.Heat.Sketch’ – the ‘What Three Words’ location for St Paul’s Cathedral in London

By choosing and searching on key words that support the themes of my diary entries, I planned to search locations and visit them. The photographs would be portraits of me standing in the precise location of my words, almost as a waypoint or position marker. I was interested in what I could create with the compositions and how they might link with my thoughts and feelings in the diary. My presence would be a reflection on my place in the world and that place would be something I had expressed with my writings. The idea was a good start, but I quickly ran into difficulties with the technology. What Three Words is a global system, so the grid of spaces it describes spans the whole globe in by using geolocation in the same way as twitter. I knew early on that if I chose the wrong words, I could be looking at a location on the other side of the world, which would be an obvious problem. My preparation for that would be using a thesaurus to come up with many different connotations that may yield more local targets. The main issue though, was the application doesn’t allow searching for locations through the individual words themselves. Currently, the only way it can be used is either by knowing the whole string of words, so Type.Heat.Sketch as in the above example or the landmark (St Paul’s) or the postal address. This was essentially a hurdle I could not overcome. However, it led to me thinking about what I wanted this assignment to say.

Back to the Drawing Board

Disappointing as the first idea was, I started to think about what I wanted my assignment to say. The subject was Self-Portraiture, so it needed to have a central theme about me, my perspective or my life experiences. I was still thinking about using location in some way but accepted that it my not fit my interpretation of the brief. I used a mind map to try to articulate my thoughts on the brief at this point.

Mind Map of Self Portraiture (as I saw it at this point).

At this point, I was still thinking of self portraiture in the traditional sense. A picture of me in some contextual setting with some narrative that could be drawn from it. The subsequent work in Part 3 introduced me to the works of Morrissey who placed herself in the lives of others[4] or used herself as a simple blank canvass [5] in a way that is clearly self portraiture. Then, with the addition of Calle, Kapajeva and Shafran, the concept of self portraiture as something that the artist has to be physically present in was challenged. With Moffat, the artist became an actor in the work with the connections between her sense of self and her subjects being imitation [6]. When I revisited the mind map, I could add ‘absentia’ and ‘mirror’ to the ideas of portraiture of myself. The work that really inspired me from those artists was that of Calle and Morrissey. Calle’s act of getting a group of people to articulate how she might be feeling about being dumped was almost creating the art automatically. The 107 women told Calle’s story from their own perspectives but in a way that anyone could relate to. She introduced humour in the destruction of the words which creates the narrative of taking away her ex partner’s power. Morrissey worked with her young daughter to produce a series about the way that children express themselves as they develop. Her role in the series was as a blank canvas for her daughter to paint on which also created a narrative about parents and children and their natural bond. The other artist that had inspired me from the start of this course was Anna Fox. In her work Cockroach Diary [7], Fox tells the story of her battle with her landlord over an infestation of cockroaches. She blends images of her handwritten diary that details her encounters with factual images of the insects either crawling around her flat or recently killed by the artist. What is a documentary struggle to persuade her landlord that there really is a problem they should be looking at, is also a commentary of life is like when you don’t have a comfortable home environment. Fox was a struggling artist and mother when this series was created and it really made me feel like a lucky man.

Another idea

My second idea for the assignment took cues from Calle, Morrissey and Moffat. I’ve always been told that I write well, which is partly down to the many reports and documents I’ve had to prepare in my career but also because of my passion for communicating with people. The written word is not necessarily the easiest medium for this as it is open to interpretation. Care needs to be taken to get the message across while accounting for how the audience may react which is a challenge that I always relish when I’m writing. During the writing of the diary, I enjoyed setting the scene for what I was trying to say and found myself drifting into my memories with ease. This is something I wanted to get across in the assignment in order to represent my personality. Like Calle, I wanted an alternative view of the text but instead of using other people I opted for technology to do the legwork for me.

In my line of work, there are always ways of collating messages from multiple sources e.g a survey or poll so that people can easily grasp the consensus. One of the techniques that emerged a number of years ago was the creation of a word map or cloud. They would be a collation of the most used words in a body of text or description or even a narrative that are represented visually. The most used words would be the largest font size, while the less frequent ones relegated to a smaller, less distracting size. The theory with this technique was that the importance was related to the number of times the word occurred. In the case of a survey, this is true as it’s usually a collection of many views – the more it occurs, the greater the consensus. An example of this can be seen below:

Example of a word map\

What is interesting about these maps is that they are specifically designed to draw our attention to a few key messages. I started thinking about how I write and the connections I make between subjects. This crude algorithmic representation could be used to represent my thoughts without actually forming sentences in the traditional structure. More importantly, running the diary entries through a word map generator would provide the structure that I was missing in my previous assignment. I did a quick search online for software that would create a word map from my diary and found one that would work well for this idea.

In terms of photographing to support the words, I was immediately drawn to Trish Morrissey’s work The Failed Realist [5] where she used her face as a blank canvass for her daughter to paint on. The consistent theme was her blank expression on the artist’s face and each composition being the same. The distinguishing features were the painting with their childlike interpretation and the image titles that tell us what each is supposed to be. I was really inspired by the self-portraiture being a canvass serving no other obvious purpose than to showcase something else. In reality, Morrissey’s part in the series is another layer of context pointing to her relationship with the other artist and, perhaps the visualisation of the child’s creativity through adult eyes. For my assignment I would use my physical self as a canvass for my diary by projecting the word maps onto my skin. I could create the context by choosing which part of my body to project on, depending on the words in the map. I was also inspired by Moffat’s use of photoshop to create an almost unreal visualisation of her as her subjects and decided to light the background in a way to both make as statement of my mood and make each image stand out on its own.

Initial Conclusions

At this point, I felt that I had achieved a number of milestones with this idea for the assignment. I had taken on board the feedback about having a structure to the approach in my work. I had taken inspiration from a variety of photographers studied in this section of the course and combined elements in my idea. I would be experimenting with the compositions so that they enhance the words.

Technical Approach

I started by finding a Word Map generator program that could analyse my diary. I chose an online tool called wordclouds.com which allows the user to upload large bodies of text, change the shape of the resulting map as well as colours and fonts. The most important feature was the ability to remove words from the map using the word count list. I decided that I wanted the most-used words to stand out in the word map, so I chose to delete all of those that appeared only once in the text.

The first step was to upload the text for each day of the diary and save local copies of the word maps for processing. I then removed the single-event words and experimented with the shape of the map. Different shapes meant that the words would be arranged differently when projected. I didn’t want the maps to be too contrived, so largely stuck to simple square and diamond patterns which resulted in aesthetically pleasing maps. Each processed map was saved as an image file.

The projector that I was using was connected to my computer and some tests were carried out on my skin. The first thing I noticed was that there was enough contrast to make the words stand out. The projection bent around the contours of my face and body, which was the effect I was after. However, I realised early on that the colours of the words were too much of a distraction and were actually only related to the word count. Since the size of the text was also related to word count I decided that I could remove the colour and still keep the look I was after. To achieve the final look, I converted the maps to black and white. An example of the word maps can be seen below:

Example of word map

At this point, I started thinking again of what I wanted to say with this series. I wanted to highlight the differences between the emotions and memories that I’d expressed in the diary and the impassive interpretation of a computer algorithm. The words created in the maps were the ones most commonly used in my writing, but their meaning collectively differed from the original text to such an extent that multiple narratives were possible when viewing them. I needed a way to bring that into the photographs, so I asked my wife to work through the diary again paying attention to the sense of emotion in each entry.

The conclusion from reviewing the diary entries was that the core themes in the two weeks of the diary could be grouped into emotional themes. Rather than a simplistic model of happy, sad, angry etc., the themes that Jayne recognised in the text were more about sensation or perception relating to the events being described. In this case, boredom and excitement were just as tangible as the traditional category of mood. These themes could be grouped across the 14 days of the diary into 7 clear ’emotions’ There is significant research into how emotions are both represented and invoked by our perception of colour. As our primary sense, the sight of colour can induce a mood that we subsequently associate with that colour subconsiously. For this series, I wanted to both represent my emotional responses by using colour but also to suggest to the viewer how they might feel about the image through its use.

Researching colours and emotions revealed both theory and empirical data that was promising for my group of emotional responses. I first looked at how colour is used in advertising to make the target audience feel a certain way. In an interesting article on the psychology of colour [8], the author suggests that our associations with colour can cover a variety of emotional reactions the follow a common relatable theme and that the reactions depend on the other contextual aspects of a situation or subject. For example, red is associated with anything that invokes passion but an image of glossy red lipstick invokes erotic or romantic feelings where a fire engine creates a sense of danger or hazard. The response to get the pulse racing is the same, but the stimulus is different depending on the situation. When used in a photograph, how the viewer responds will be dependent on what else is going on in the frame. The second research source was a survey of how men and women of different cultures react to colours when they see them [9]. The survey asked people to choose the emotion that best matched their reaction to a colour from a multiple choice list. The data was then collated to show the emotions that best correlate with colour. From the two papers, the following list of colours and emotions was created.

Grouped emotional responses with their associated colours

At this point, I shot another test, this time with a colour in the background created by a strobe and red gel.

Second Test – Using a red gel combined with the monochrome text projected onto my face.

The final stage was to experiment with composition. I was originally inspired in this idea by Trish Morrissey’s The Failed Realist, which revolved around just one composition where the artist looks straight into the camera. The frames were cropped to her head and shoulders and her expression is completely blank. There are no props, backgrounds or attention to her form such as hair and makeup – she literally uses her face as a blank canvass for her daughter. I wanted to something similar in order to focus the viewer on the words with only the background knowledge that they were mine. What makes each photograph interesting in that series is the different paintings and their titles. I needed to ensure that my images had that same variety to hold interest. As the diary was a linear progression of two weeks of my life and the colours mapped the emotions of each day, I decided that this was sufficient context to keep the series from looking like 7 versions of the same picture.

Conclusion

During this preparation phase, the idea had developed through my having a structured approach that would provide the baseline for creating the work – this was one key takeaway from the feedback after Assignment 2. I took inspiration from the photographers studied in Part 3 and my plan for this series should lead to a piece of work that highlights the contrast between expression seen through human eyes and those of a computer; the emotions being both a representation and invitation to the viewer to feel a certain way about the words. In conclusion, I feel that the series potentially has the multiple layers of context we’ve been working with throughout this unit as well as being uniquely personal to me in terms of creativity.

References

[1] Fox A, 1999, “My Mother’s Cupboards and My Father’s Words”, Artist Website, https://annafox.co.uk/photography/my-mothers-cupboards-and-my-fathers-words/

[2] Fletcher R, 2020, “Assignment 3 Diary”, OCA blog post, <insert link>

[3] Feinstein J, 2016, “Geolocations: Two Photographers Heatbreaking Visualizations of Tweets”, Humble Arts Foundations Blog Post, http://hafny.org/blog/2016/geolocation-two-photographers-heartbreaking-visualization-of-tweets

[4] Morrissey T, 2007, “Front”, Artist Website, https://www.trishmorrissey.com/works_pages/work-front/workpg-01.html

[5] Morrissey T, 2011, “The Failed Realist”, Artist Website, http://www.trishmorrissey.com/works_pages/work-tfr/statement.html

[6] Rosenberg K, 2007, “Show and Tell, Tracey Moffatt at Stux Gallery”, New York Magazine, https://nymag.com/arts/art/showandtell/26538/

[7] Fox A, 1999, “Cockroach Diary”, Artist Website, https://annafox.co.uk/photography/cockroach-diary/

[8] Rickard, 2015, “The Psychology of Color: A Designer’s Guide to Color Association & Meaning”, ZevenDesign, https://zevendesign.com/color-association/#green

[9] Centeno A, “Colour and Emotion Across Culture – Emotional Responses of People to Various Colours”, Real Men Real Style Magazine Post, https://www.realmenrealstyle.com/color-emotion-cultures/

3) Exercise 4: Shafran Critique

The Brief

Go to the artist’s website and look at the other images in Shafran’s series.

You may have noticed that Washing-up is the only piece of work in Part Three created by a man. It is also the only one with no human figures in it, although family members are referred to in the captions.

  • In what ways might a photographer’s gender contribute to the creation and reading of an image?
  • What does the series achieve by not including people?
  • Do you regard them as interesting ‘still life’ compositions?

Critique

The brief draws attention to the work in Part 3 being almost entirely created by female artists, with Shafran being the exception. I hadn’t initially spotted that while working through the projects and exercises, so this was the first area I wanted to explore in answering the brief. My neutrality in appreciating the works naturally stems from my life experiences to date. Many of my strongest influences have come from the key women in my life and I believe that has shaped my perspective on how people share their opinions and emotions with others. It’s not to say that I haven’t had strong male role models of course, but I think the balance of both influences is responsible for the fact that I haven’t considered gender in my interpretation of the works in this unit.

With regard to how gender contributes to the work and its interpretation, I think the starting point for me is the artist’s experience within their environment. Men and women naturally have different experiences caused by their biology and so it’s not unreasonable to expect their expression of the emotions surrounding them to be different. For example, Brotherus’ story of unsuccessful IVF treatment is told from the painful perspective of being a woman unable to conceive. The women that I know who have been through that experience, all had huge doubts about themselves because of being unable to do what is the most natural thing in the world for their gender. Some felt like failures and shouldered the responsibility for any unsuccessful treatment cycles. Brotherus’ story is incredibly raw and moving, however her series also contains her references to her partner who is, for the want of a better expression ‘in the same boat’. His role in the work is relatively small compared to hers and the photographs say little about his experience. Would a series from his perspective be as powerful? Undoubtedly so, but perhaps it wouldn’t be as focused on the biological disfunction as hers. My male friends who’ve experienced IVF spoke of trying to remain supportive, calm and patient, despite sharing the anger and disappointment when it didn’t work. I believe a male perspective on the same event would have similar themes, but different narratives. In the case of Lee’s Projects, the artist explores the cultures and sub-cultures that were alien to her as a young Korean woman. The themes range from age to race, societal roles to sexuality and Lee places herself in this virtual world to experience and comment from within. In an interview [1], Lee said that she always includes other people in her work as she feels that she learns more about who she is through the eyes of the people around her. This self-perception is likely more about someone who emigrated to the US to complete her study (Lee moved to the US to study for her Masters degree), but there is also likely to be an element of gender, bias simply because she is of a generation where women were more empowered in their pursuit of career. While I cannot speak for all men, I personally don’t view myself through the eyes of other people, but do use their feedback to inform my opinions on my behaviour and the way that I interact with them. Perhaps then, I would have worked on Projects with more of a feeling of ‘outsider’ documenting human relationships, rather than their effect on my own self image.
With Shafran’s Washing Up the subtle compositions have contextual elements that tell a story of daily life through the lens of what he and his partner have in common. When I look at the images, I see a very factual representation of domestic life and the cues such as paint brushes and brightly-coloured utensils don’t really have a gender bias. He creates as sense of ‘done’ about the subject (the washing up) as well as alluding to his and his partner’s presence or absence through the amount of crockery on the rack. I found the inclusion of the initials behind the taps to be an almost passive-aggressive statement because of the crudity of their construction, but they could have been created from the perspective of either of them. Where the other artists in Part 3 have told stories of events in their lives, Shafran tells a factual tale of the passage of daily life through a series of aesthetically appealing still life type shots.

With regard to Shafran omitting people from his compositions, I think that the overall effect is that of a broadly interpretable context. The pictures say something about the lives of the people involved, but tell very little about them personally. We cannot derive any information about age, looks or social standing, but these are traditional contextual elements for portraiture. Shafran isn’t interested in showing himself or his partner to the viewer, but instead tells a story of their lives through images of their environment. We are not distracted by wondering about the traditional contexts, but instead are looking at the evidence of their lives in a way that is relatable to everyone. We all have some type of kitchen domesticity to contend with. For me, the bottle of wine that appears next to the sink in a number of the pictures is a relatable feature of modern stressful living. The ever-present washing up gloves acting as separation from the task also tells me that there is an order to their world, without worrying about saying who wears them. Shafran’s work takes the concept of storytelling further than portraiture, making the statement that we are not just a physical presence to be captured, but our lives have an impact that can be just as interesting a document as a simple shot of the face.

When I look at Shafran’s Washing Up I do see a series that could easily be interpreted as a still life.

“Still life can be a celebration of material pleasures such as food and wine, or often a warning of the ephemerality of these pleasures and of the brevity of human life”

Tate Definition of Still Life [2]

Shafran’s images show everyday items in a recognisable scene that do indeed point the brevity of human life as above. The washing up Is either underway or finished which is a snapshot of time that may be repeated the following meal, but will be different each time. The lighting in the photographs emphasises the different textures and colours of the items in a way that traditional still life does, but their arrangement leads away from a simple appreciation of them with relation to each other. The other contrasting elements suggest more connection between the items and their surroundings; only after looking closely do we see that there might be a story about the owners being told here. As we move through the series, the items in the kitchen are either arranged differently or changed completely, which again suggests the images are not of the items but of their part in the daily routine of the owner’s life. To that end, still life isn’t really the right genre to assign to this work.

Conclusion

I find Shafran’s work interesting in it’s seemingly simple representation of the banal. The trace elements of his and his partner’s lives are very subtle, but Shafran bring them out of the background for the viewer to interpret how they wish to. In leaving himself and his family out of the photographs, there are no preconceptions about them only a suggestion of what they life might be like. I’m not convinced that Shafran’s gender is a contributing factor to the impact of his work as could potentially be said of the other artists in Part 3. Shafran talks of reacting to something he sees and wanting to communicate it in a simple way [3]. Perhaps the reaction is emotional or environmentally driven as with the other artists and that Shafran chooses to express himself through carefully using props instead of people. Whatever the reason, his work has a wonderful sense of the ordinary about it in the way that Anna Fox’s work did in Part 2.

References

[1] Unknown, 2013, “INNERView EP65 Who am I? The artist drawing attention in New York – Nikki S Lee, ARIRANG TV Youtube Channel, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMychWgKedA

[2] Unknown, “Art Term – Still Life, Tate Online, https://www.tate.org.uk/art/art-terms/s/still-life

[3] Smythe D, 2018, “Everyday Beauty with Nigel Shafran”, British Journal of Photography, https://www.bjp-online.com/2018/05/shafraninterview/

3) Project 3: Self-absented Portraiture

Introduction

The concepts studied in Part 3 thus far have largely been what I’ve come to expect in the genre of portraiture.  I could relate to the metaphorical story telling of Brotherus and the substitution work of Morrissey as their life and personality exist within the work either in their entirety or partially.  However, this project introduces us to what at first glance appears to be a more tenuous form of portraiture, that of not being part of the image at all.  Instead, the artist is represented by the inclusion of other people or in some cases, nobody at all.  When considering this idea of self-absented portraiture, the immediate thought that it cannot be consider so if the artist is not in the picture, can be quickly dismissed when considering human imagination, interpretation and the creativity that it involves.  People see things that remind them of life experiences, so it’s not difficult to connect other people that seem familiar to the artist or even simple environmental elements with a ‘sense of self’.  In this project, we are introduced to two new artists and one that we looked at previously, all of whom have told their story or a expressed their life experiences through absented portraits.

Maria Kapejeva

Kapejeva’s Portrait of the Artist as a Young Woman takes it’s cues and inspiration from James Joyce’s similarly titled book Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man, which tells the story of the intellectual and religious awakening of a young man growing up in the Catholic faith in Ireland.  Kapejeva grew up in Estonia in the 1970s and 80s where the culture dogmatically ordained that men and women would be considered equal in the workplace, but that women would be entirely responsible for domestic homemaking and raising the family.  This latter imbalance meant that women could, but rarely did achieve successful careers, instead waiting around for a man to keep them well enough for focus on their domestic duties.  Like Joyce’s lead character, Kapejava rebelled against the idea of her upbringing by using her photography to explore the alternatives to life as prescribed by her culture.   These portraits are of women who Kapejeva relates to in her quest to break the stereotypes of women as she saw them.  In each subject, she seeks to capture the strength of their intellects as well as their determination to flourish in their environment without conforming to expectation.

My two favourite images from the series are shown below.

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Untitled, from the series ‘Portrait of the Artist as a Young Woman, by Maria Kapejeva 2012- [1]

Here we have a young woman dressed in modern clothing, holding a cat.  Her fashion and makeup is bold an loud, yet she wears a scarf in what could suggest domesticity.  Scarves like this were popular during the middle of the 20th Century with women who did domestic jobs that needed them to keep their hair tied up out of the way.  In this image, though it both complements and contrasts the rest of her clothing which includes a fur coat.  Fur coats used to symbolise status and standing in high society, again an older reference as with the scarf.  I see the woman as being both successful and comfortable tacking everything that comes her way, even the drudgery of domestic life.  For me, the most compelling element in the image is the cat.  There is a common impression that some single people who have cats do so as a substitute to human company.  The extension to that thought is that single women in particular are drawn to cats, which is as ridiculous as it is offensive.  The woman in this picture cradles the cat with the defiant expression that suggests she needs nobody to make her life complete.  As Kapajeva states in her description of the series, the women she encountered were realising their own potential rather than settling for a life of marriage and domesticity.  This image embodies that thought perfectly for me.

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Untitled, from the series ‘Portrait of the Artist as a Young Woman, by Maria Kapejeva 2012- [1]

In this photograph we have a young woman sitting at at table with the implication that she is completely nude under her jacket.  The elements in this image include her sewing machine, anatomical statuette and a garment draped over what looks like an artist’s easel.  They suggest that the woman is a fashion designer or seamstress sitting in her working environment, which is different from the previous photograph where the woman is sitting in a street scene.  We also have a book titled ‘Seduction’ on the table that ties in with her nude figure.  The model is posing in a seductive way, bearing one breast to the viewer wile the rest of her figure is covered up by her jacket.  The only other item of clothing is her shoes which are a high heel design, also suggesting a seductive glamour.   Finally, we have her expression which is one of a woman in complete control of her self image.  Her gaze out of the photograph suggests that she has her own unique style and will play the part of ‘seducer’ on her own terms.  When I look at this image, like the previous, I see a great strength and independent spirit coming through.  It’s easy to see the connection with the artist in these individual images, but the messaging is much clearer when seen in the rest of the series.  Kapajeva left Estonia to explore her own independence, strength and desire to create her own style.  It’s clear to interpret these images as telling her story, even though she isn’t involved directly in the visual.

Sophie Calle

We were introduced to Sophie Calle in Project 2 of this course.  Her famous work Take Care of Yourself tells the story of her being dumped by her lover via email.  Her reaction to this remote, detached separation was to share the email with a group of women (107 of them).  Calle asked the women to react or respond in their own way, resulting in a piece of work that was mixed media.  In some cases, the women responded by critiquing or editing the text, while others physically destroyed a printed copy of it.  One of the women was a biathlete who shot a copy of the email with her biathlon rifle.  Rather than simply being a photographic project, Calle achieved a belittling and public shaming of her former lover without ever mentioning his name.  She did, as the course notes describe, demean the power of the email and turned it into a joke for everyone to see.  What interested me in re-visiting the work was that the common thread through the pieces within it was of course the email and that was something that was happening directly to Calle.  She was the one receiving it and having to deal with the subsequent heartache.  However, the women she sent the message to responded as if they were Calle.  The concept of ‘Hell having no fury like a woman scorned” is real here as each woman reacts in a visceral way that their ‘sister’ might have.  There is no indication that Calle was close to all who took part in the project, so the resulting message leaves us with an insight, but also mystery around Calle’s actual reaction.  Perhaps the women were being extreme in their treatment of it, or perhaps they were merely an outlet for the extreme hurt and anger that the artist was suffering.  Either way, the work is definitely a self-portrait of Calle’s emotion and personality in its curation and also of her gender and the solidarity of women wanting to be respected even when a relationship is coming to an end.

Nigel Shafran

In his work Washing Up, Shafran presents us with a series of images shot from similar perspectives of a kitchen sink space.  Each composition contains common elements such as the sink, the worktops and the kitchen utensils hanging on the wall.  However, each one is composed with some activity occurring or having just occurred within the space.  Shafran describes with this images the way that our lives pass from the viewpoint of the seemingly banal.  His kitchen sink has the remnants of a recent meal or a reference to the comings and goings of him and his partner, Ruth.   Subtle changes in the lighting from natural to artificial and the inclusion of contextual reference such as tinsel lend suggest the passage of time.  Consider the two pictures below:

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From the series ‘Washing Up’, by Nigel Shafran (2000) [2]


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From the series ‘Washing Up’, by Nigel Shafran (2000) [2]

In the first image, we have the kitchen sink with the the crockery from a meal drying on the rack.  The scene is muted in colour apart from the boldness of the teapot, washing up gloves and the little blue figure sitting on top of the electrical outlet.  The natural light and the teapot suggest the morning, but the intriguing elements in the frame are the letters behind the sink.  The N and R on closer inspection are made from black electrical tape so are not part of the normal tiling of the kitchen.  Their position behind the taps suggest a relationship with them and the initials themselves are those of Nigel and his partner, Ruth.  What is this saying about them in this composition?  Is there. suggestion of opposites or of conflicting moods?  One could be considered hot and the other cold, like the taps themselves.  The picture leads us to question why the lettering and the contrasting decorating of the wall with what looks like cards and photographs.  Clearly something is being said about a point in Nigel’s routine here, but the contextual elements are broad enough for the viewer to draw their narrative.

When we look at the second image, which is the third one in the series, we see the same scene but with something different going on.  Firstly, the lettering has gone, which further points to some temporary event or issue.  We now have part of a bottle of wine and clear evidence of some kind of party.  When we look closer still, there are a number of paint brushes drying on the counter and hanging from the rack.  Perhaps there has been some decorating being celebrated or perhaps some other form of art is being created.  The space in which to create the narrative is equally broad but in each case a different story is being told about Nigel’s life.

The interesting thing about this series is that as indicated in the notes, the photographer is not part of the composition.  Unlike the direct connections that we have with Kapajeva and Calle, the only thing we know for sure is that this is Nigel’s home environment.  His life is playing out in this ordinary scene and while elements are most likely constructed for the photographs, the sense of natural order and passage of time are strong in this work.  Without knowing anything about the photographer, we are almost improvising a story around him through the simple elements or ‘stuff’ that he includes here.

Conclusion

In each example, the point that self-portraiture needs to have the artist present is reinforced.  If narrative can be created by contextual elements that the artist includes, it makes sense that if those elements are part of their life then the work is a self-portrait.  My conclusion from this research is that our traditional impression of what makes a self-portrait stems from the literal representation of the artist from early painting.  Painters were hugely successful people, but because of the absence of print and photographic media, the only way people got to see them was through their self-portraits.  Even then, the pictures were controlled by the artist, revealing just what he or she wanted representing.  I’m reminded of the so-called likenesses that Holbein painted during the Tudor period.  People saw beauty or ugliness, humour or meanness in his subjects which were controlled to the artist’s extent that the famous story of Anne of Cleves being nothing like her portrait [3] demonstrated the power of the painter.  The same can be said for their self-portraits, which could mislead the viewer both in terms of their appearance and their personality.

If we move away from the traditional to the absent self-portrait, we have to derive meaning from very subtle contextual and cultural elements.  We ask questions about Kapajeva’s actual experiences and Shafran’s actual life but that doesn’t stop us from having an impression of the artist, more that there are many different versions we can see and many different conclusions we can draw.

References

[1] Kapajeva M, 2012, Portrait of the artist as a young woman’, Artist Website, http://www.mariakapajeva.com/a-portrait-of-the-artist-as-a-young-woman/

[2]Shafran N, 2000, “Washing Up”, Artist’s Website, http://nigelshafran.com/category/washing-up-2000-2000/page/4/

[3]Unknown, “Anne of Cleves”, The National Portrait Gallery, https://www.npg.org.uk/collections/search/person/mp11081/anne-of-cleves